Not crazy at all ! I’m so sorry for your loss by the way. Must have been really tough, also since we think we have ruled out the possibility of miscarriage at 18 weeks.. I lost my baby at 10 weeks, at the scan, they saw with the size of the baby that the heart had probably stopped beating at 9 weeks. 9 weeks was exactly when i realized my symptoms had stopped. I had absolutely no symptoms except my boobs were tender and i had acid reflux. I was being told how lucky i was that i had no symptoms but i knew these symptoms would have comforted me. Especially since i was really anxious from the start. Anyway ! I completely understand how you feel and these feelings are VALID ! Sorry for me english, i’m french canadian !
You're not crazy. I was actually just talking to my husband about the same thing. I've had two losses through IVF and just did another transfer. If this one sticks, I actually want symptoms to help reassure me that it's healthy. I think many people who haven't gone through a loss really don't understand the fear it causes. Bottom line, just know you're not alone!