Why am I such a bitch? 🤦‍♀️

I ask myself what to do about my straight up attitude everyday really. I am very irritable all the time. My mental health is a large part and being on medications after being diagnosed with some things helped. Mood stabilizers being a big one. Are you going to bed super late or not sleeping well? Have a lot on your mind? It’s hard to wake up feeling fresh if you go to bed with a lot weighing on you.

Meditation. Definitely no caffeine,smoking and alcohol. Bath. Take a chill pill or timeout to relax your nerves

Therapy girl therapy 💕

my sleep pattern has been between 10-2am. I get off work at 830. Pick up baby from daycare, we stay up until he falls asleep. I use to clean up after he falls asleep but I have not done in a couple months bc of the irritability. We start our mornings around 8-9am . I do have a lot on my mind but it’s mostly my family bc we going thru a phase. Also I’m constantly craving a smoke or drinking break. I try to zone out but even then I feel like I’m wasting time. Idk. It’s hard to explain. 🤯

I tried to cut out alcohol bc I was binge drinking for a while. I smoke daily . What’s a good chill pill? I’ve never resorted to medication bc its just something I don’t take.

Is something playing on your mind? Residual stress can affect sleep and that's why you can wake up tense

What about the contraception you are on? When I had my first i went on the plastic coil and didn't realise that it gave me depression until like 6 months later. Once I removes it my moods evened out and everything was better

I’ll just say that I struggled with erratic emotions and super negative behavior. One day I just felt like quitting drinking (and I drank pretty much every day) and after a week or so I couldn’t believe how much my feelings and attitude improved. Alcohol affects your body and mind for days and even weeks after drinking it. It also is horrible for your sleep and if I don’t sleep I’m cranky AF. Try dropping it ideally for 90 days and I bet anything you’ll see a big difference.

I’m not currently on any contraceptions. It just be the moods girl.

this tho. I totally believe you. The irritability started when I started the drinking and before I would occasionally get toasted and I be okay you know. But these past two weeks I’ve been drinking my feelings. Just to not think about anything. But it bugs me when I do nothing as well. I will try to do the detox tho bc I need something girl. I’m tired of buying bottles and craving my next drink.

yup, I totally get that. It’s so easy to fall into that pattern, but trust me that drinking all the time will catch up to you. I saw a quote recently saying “sobriety offers everything that alcohol promises” and it’s so true. I don’t know if I’ll be “sober” for forever, but for now it’s definitely helping.

my mind is in between my day to day chores. Wishing I could help my mom but I live 60 miles away. I’m not struggling , I have a job, I try to manage my time and money well. I do need to up my experience and go back to school but that happens with applying myself. I will look more into residual stress. Something that happened last week might have triggered the anger in me.

thank you for this btw. I don’t claim I have a problem with alcohol but it’s something I try to keep myself aware of bc my dad was an alcoholic and it took him. My brothers are like me, drinkers but try not to it ruin us. I lost my brother while he was drunk and he drowned in a river.
Just some background.
I come from a family of 6 brothers and 3 sisters
As of today, 4 brothers and all my sisters are earthside.
My sisters don’t drink tho. Just me.

yeah I can somewhat relate. I’ve never really identified as an alcoholic or having an issue with alcohol either and I don’t really identify as “sober” either though technically I am (well also I just got pregnant again so I have to be). But it can be a slippery slope as you know, so something to think on. I bet a detox (even short term) would have your mood in a whole different place though. Best of luck.

🎵I'm a bitch, I'm a lover, I'm a child, I'm a mother, I'm a sinner, I'm a Saint, I DO NOT FEEL ASHAMED!🎵

sorry i meant meditation. I usually leave the kid with his dad. Go out to explore and treat myself. Maybe coffee or shopping. If it helps

I will think on it . But i will reach out to you when I’m in a better mental place. 😊 thank you mama for your words and reply. I appreciate you!

I love music! Song? 🎧

maybe me and the lil one can take a nature walk. We do live by the Sandias. I need to apply more as a mom and as an individual. I do miss my alone times but I love my family more.

Meredith brooks, bitch. It's old lol I love music too its my therapy.

I get like this too. I just get super negative and rude for no reason. But remember, we have 4 different cycles a month and our hormones are all over the place. Give yourself grace and make sure your taking care of you and your inner self. That helps alot with the irritability or short temper. Hang in there 🫶

I always make sure to do my morning routine and never skip my skin care routine. Use a quasha!!! Massaging your face and neck helps. Make sure your taking time for yourself.

fr I always make sure to start my day with music. My spoify has been on repeat lol

If you can recognize in the moment that you're getting worked up I'd voice that to your family.

I used to be crabby especially around pms, and my husband (boyfriend at the time) couldn't handle the fighting. I learned to communicate more when I'm on edge, getting annoyed or frustrated.

He would then back off and be more gentle with me or give me my space if that's what I needed. It has helped our relationship so much because I communicated my emotions.

are you a swiftie?

I don’t know, but I am too. I’m 39 and think I’m going through perimenopause

in HS yeah haha , shoot me a song? I don’t mind, I listen to any and everything as long it has a good beat and makes me wanna move like a boov 👾

Go for a 5/10 run if you can. Get your endorphins going