At Skyla thanks,that's exactly how I feel..at my work they guve us out chocolates with certificates I ve heard a whispa..I mean it's nice but the fact that we are underpaid and do extra jobs and are lowest of the lowest and there's noone there for support yet they tell you off for any stupid thing..I feel like I ve lost any sense of purpose or directions..I cabt afford to quit but because if the way I feel low and no confidence,every time I apply for jobs I don't get them.and there's childcare issues...so I m limited to what jobs I can apply for....
Oh, I will never pretend that any choices you have to make are easy. It will take some time for sure! I worked there for 6 years before I became a SAHM. I knew I wanted something different, I just didn't know what that was tbh. I'm a creative person, so I wanted and still kinda do want something that I can express that part of me. I have let doubt get in my way and unfortunately nothing changes if we don't find the confidence to go outside our comfort zone. I saw another mom telling someone in a similar situation to not just fill out applications. If you come across something you really want, you might have to just speak directly to management. I understand the anxiety in that for sure, but you deserve a job that you really want. I hope you can dig deep and get closer to your dream job. Until then maybe center yourself before you go to work. Try to get in a peaceful headspace and do that more throughout the day to get yourself back to a peaceful place. They aren't worth losing yourself or losing your cool.
I felt this way before becoming a SAHM. I had co-workers that I consider friends, but there were people that I could hardly tolerate too. Just unprofessional and confrontational behavior. I didn't feel like I was really making a difference and I was at the bottom of the totem pole. I didn't mind at first, but when they let you know how low you are it's insulting! They thought pizza parties were a band-aid, but I'm not a child.😒 Free pizza is nice, but they would watch us and repeat that we could only have two slices🤦 It's just not a solution to boosting morale, it misses the mark for sure! I'm glad I left, but if it wasn't to be a SAHM I would have to find another job before quitting. If you need the money, switch jobs first for sure! If you can afford to quit, then quit because they won't even care at your next job. It's more common these days for people to "job hop", no shame in the game🤷 Good luck!