Feel more Alone and Isolated than ever in my Life

I’m 33 weeks pregnant and have never felt more lonely in my entire life, honestly the only person I have is my unborn baby. I must say I find pregnancy to be so lonely and isolating and you see people’s true character when you need them the most and you realise you are well and truly on your own with this. This is my experience anyway. With the birth approaching fast I am trying to educate myself as much as possible so I can know what to expect. It’s so frustrating when I try to attend antenatal classes or even just look at articles or videos online and the only thing they bother to say is “it’s imperative you have your partner there” firstly, are women incapable of giving birth on our own? What can he do that I can’t? And secondly what about the women who do not have kind, supportive partners? For women who already have partners, they will naturally include them anyway without being told and the women who don’t have kind partners are just made to feel even more invisible and undermined everytime they are told they need to have their partner there and that’s the most crucial thing. I feel utterly forsaken by the very people I care about and have helped and uplifted for many many years. I feel ignored by my partner who I now believe is seeing someone behind my back, and my family have turned their back on me in my greatest time of need. My friends are nowhere to be seen as soon as I need support. And amidst all the toil and struggle, people only care to just pass me off as negative instead of lending an ear like I do them. Also I’ve been around animals all my life and I absolutely adore them, and this is the first time in my life where I have no animal contact and I really miss it. I love animals because they don’t judge you on superficial things, they don’t turn around and call you negative, they just comfort you no matter what. I’ve seeked help from mental health services but they don’t seem to care or take me seriously, instead they seem to care more about how my partner is because “we don’t talk enough about men in pregnancy” which I disagree with, but anyway. I’ve tried going to antenatal classes and the way they talk about women’s mental health in and after pregnancy is abysmal and offensive; and then they harp on about making sure dads are looked after and taken seriously, literally in a class that was supposed to be about alleviating fear and anxiety surrounding childbirth. The birth is not far away and I don’t feel prepared at all, I feel a pang of deep sadness everytime they mention “partner” and how you need your partner there and can’t do it in your own, and I just feel like all my questions and concerns go unheard. I feel unprepared and terrified. And above all else, totally and utterly alone. Does anyone else feel this way and what techniques do you guys have to cope with being alone?