I hate myself
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Oh baby, know that you are not alone. I loathe who I am to the core, always have. However! Great news! There is help available to you for free. Loving kindness meditation and affirmations have really helped me. Here’s a free one from the Buddhify app, which I’ve used for over twelve years now. https://buddhify.com/stress-awareness-week-1/ Headspace is also another amazing meditation app, with a LOT of content to browse through. If you search YouTube for “meditation positive affirmations” you will find a treasure trove of content related to affirmations, one of the most powerful ways I’ve found to learn to try and hate myself a little less. Good luck baby, we’re rooting for you ♥️ PS everyone is different; sertraline definitely did not work for me and I absolutely hated it. It took me years of trying different meds with my psychiatrist to find just the right combination. In other words, do tell your doctor you don’t like the side effects! :)
Absolutely agree with Kristen, these meds come with so many side effects that can go on for months until you adjust this may not be right for you. Definantly speak with your GP 🤗
You should speak to your doctor about your dosage or maybe even switch to something else. It doesn't sound like after 2 months the medication is helping you. There are other tools that could help you as well. Do you have a counselor?
DBT! It helped me tons.
I took zoloft and I gained 40 pounds and it didn't help my depression. I finally found a medication that works for my depression. The weight all came off when I tapered off the zoloft. It took me a few years to find treatment that worked for me. If a medication isn't helping then you need to work with your doctor to find what works. When you are on the right treatment you will know. It was night and day for me.
Have you looked into pp therapy? It can really help challenge this and help you understand exactly the sabotage cycle.
I'm sorry you're feeling this way, it's a really awful feeling 😔 you should probably talk to your doctor because this might not be the right medication for you, and you could have something hormonal going on too. You already are examining your thoughts and motivated to get better so that's half the battle right there, just keep reaching out for the treatment, help and support you need and deserve 💖💖💖