Vent because I can’t afford therapy 😭
Hey mommas! I hope I don’t get any hate from this post because I know I’m the problem in the relationship but it’s just really hard because I truly think I need a therapist but right now I can’t afford and I would like to talk to someone because I really don’t want to ruin my marriage. I love my husband a lot but I have a problem staying loyal. It’s not physical it’s only have been online cheating. It started about 2 years ago when we went through a really rough patch where I started to talk to other guys to feel love and wanted. My husband caught me and in that time he had a lot to work on and wasn’t there for me, it was an eye opener for him. We worked on each other and we were doing soooo good! For a while after being pregnant and going through PP. I gave in and started texting other guys again and I can’t seem to stop even I wanted too. I really want to stop but it’s addictive and idk how. This time it’s not my husband fault he has changed so much and has been a great husband and father. But I just go through a lot mental stuff where I crave other men attention. There’s so much more into this and the timeline of what we went through but i tried to not make this post to long. I might have BPD from the way I act sometimes especially we go through a argument because that’s when I go out and go text my side dudes and after I feel bad afterwards when I’m not going through a episode
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i have bpd too its so rough 😭 dm me
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Hey text me on ig if you want to talk more about this @isabellaa.gia or dm me here I don’t think there’s any reason for people to hate on you unless they are projecting from their own hurt being on the other side but most people won’t like this but a lot of people aren’t meant to be monogamous now I’m not saying you should leave ur hubby! Ofc not but I think it’s good that you can recognize that you need more, it’s a place to start and there are things that could be done to help this (I graduate with a bachelor’s in psychology in December so I’ve studied the brain and why we do certain things and I myself have something similar where I enjoy compliments and online company from other people but would never stray from my boyfriend unless he did something very wrong so again private message me if you want someone to vent to and maybe give you good insight (unless you don’t want any advice I still offer a listening ear)