^^^ I did this too - asked the doctors and midwives not to share the info with me. They need it for their records but you don’t need to know about it if it messes with you mentally. Don’t let it stop you having another baby if you want one!
In the public system my midwife has only weighed me once and no one has asked me anything regarding weight ever since 😊
I gave them my start weight but have refused weighing since.
I mentioned to my OB that I can be a bit obsessive about my weight and he didn’t weigh me for any further appointments. We just tracked the baby’s growth.
My friend asked that she didn’t want to see the scales or numbers anywhere on her documents. Her doc recorded it on the computer records and she never saw a thing.