A long rant 😩

I just need to rant. How are you all doing this and doing this for a second time?! 😩😩😩. 9 and a half weeks pregnant here with a almost 7 month old and I’m TIRED. I’m so so TIRED. He wakes up at 5am every morning and although my partner and me take it in turns to wake up with him - I have constant broken sleep as I’m rocking him in his next to me like 7 times a night when he’s unsettled. I struggle all day to keep my eyes open and then when I do get sleep, it’s barely anything. My partner works from home so he helps as much as he can and he’ll take him once he’s finished.. for like an hour then it’s on me to feed baby, take him upstairs to get ready for bath, bath him whilst my partners role is to run the bath and then play with him in the bath… then I take him in to dry him off and I usually do the feed. My partner doesn’t seem to understand why I get envious that he sits there and plays on his phone whilst he’s working.. or when I take my baby out for the day and he’s in a peaceful house with no baby to worry about because.. it’s not a break. He’s working. Sorry what? I haven’t spent longer than 1 hour in this house when nobody else was around.. Village? What village!! I’m so sick of being everyone’s incubator. We’ve told close family about baby number two and we’ve got “wow 2 under 2” but has anyone asked me IF I AM OK? Considering I’m taking care of a 7 month old and I’m pregnant? No. Not one person has asked if I’m ok. It’s just another baby they can take from me when they are around to cuddle. My mum hasn’t seen my son at all apart from once when he was 6 weeks old. The other grandma is obsessed and is obsessed with the idea of having him to herself to bond. Takes him off me at any chance when we are around but it’s not to help me because she seems to be obsessed with getting him to love her more than anyone else..nobody else can have him as she’s over their shoulder trying to get my babies attention. I’ve struggled with her since I’ve given birth as it’s too much. I can’t even have my baby when she’s around.. if I’m trying to settle him.. she’s there patting his bum and telling him it’s all ok when he’s in my arms and I’m trying to comfort him… I hate how not one person asked me how I am after birth. They just want my baby. I have PPD/PPA but nobody knows.. because nobody has EVER asked me how I am. I don’t know what the point of this post is, I’m just so fed up and I’m so scared to do this for a second time 😩😩.