It is not normal and it is not all good. Seek help from a therapist because that definitely could traumatize your children. Do better for them if not for yourself
@Monét thank u so much. Everything literally everything makes me feel buried and angry that I am not getting any time to myself to get needs met even if it's a fking compliment. I soak up kindness these days. I'm constantly around criticism living with my mom due to separation from an abusive ex. just v unhappy. Not enough money to even think about extra things this month etc etc. It never ends. I'm having a shit time being a single mom my mental health is completely gone. My sense of self is totally fractured. Ty for asking. I just can't get a break and today was extra hard that I threw the cap of the milk bottle (plastic) across the room away from my child. Every single second he changes his mood it's psychotic
it might help for you to watch some parenting seminars.. theres tons on youtube. in the mean time you are in an environment that seems to be the root of your stress so you should start making timed goals to get out of the environment you are in. throwing things and having a temper tantrum in front of your child is unacceptable if not barbaric. everyone makes mistakes i wont judge but you should fix that behavior now and control yourself
Idk if normal is the word. You definitely were responding to your stress, and as you mentioned, unable to regulate your feelings. As long as no one was harmed, it’s all good. Maybe think a little about what’s contributing to your stress. Possibly being sick?