I’m so sorry I totally understand it was rough for me I would cry in the restroom or put the baby down and let it all out even if she cried I tried to get myself calm
@Ashley Thank you! I know it’s never my son’s fault and he’s exploring the world. I just feel so alone and no one could have helped me calmed down. Usually it’s my husband. I’m just having a hard time with everything. Depression and anxiety is no joke — when I’m in it — I want nothing to do with the baby so it’s harder for me to change the mindset since it’s so ugly..and the fact that I have literally the smallest bond with him - it doesn’t help
I had to try and recognize when I’m being triggered and try to remain calm. It’s always by an outside force and not what the baby is doing in particular. I noticed I get very irritated after my partner does something disappointing and it triggers me for hours afterwards. It’s still a work in progress but realizing when my anger is rising because I’m triggered has greatly helped keep it under control.