I had an amazing epidural experience so I have no advice. I'm so sorry you are suffering. It is crazy that it still hurts.
Going natural is so scary lol
@Lana what I learned after going through both is that it's the other way around ❤️ if you're interested or even considering, I can send you all sorts of resources but start with watching the documentary the Business of Being Born.
I had pain from my second epidural that lasted 8 years. After that experience, I went all natural with a midwife at home for my next 3. Natural birth was so much less pain than what the hospital put me through with my first two. The first thought I had after birthing my 3rd born (first homebirth) was "I want to do this again!" It was an amazing experience. Edit to add: it's totally possible to go 100% natural in a hospital as well if you have a midwife or doula to field the nurses and doctors. Do what makes you feel safe. I no longer feel safe in a hospital setting.