One of those low days
And all of a sudden, I started recounting the abuse I endured just to earn his crumbs of affection. I saw all his messages to other women and I thought if I keep reducing and selling my dignity he will finally love me. But after 10 years he still didn’t. I have broken free from the abuse why does it still hurt. I hate him, I curse him 😢
You will feel better over time. You will realise his behaviour is a reflection of himself not of who you are. Seek comfort from friends and family. Maybe write a letter as though it was to him but rip it up afterwards xx