Tired

I swear I get so tired…. I was trying to wash all of the pump parts and baby bottles. I kept hearing my baby cry from the room. I was trying to wait it out to see if he’d get it under control, but my nerves couldn’t take it. I go in there and he’s just laying there on his phone while she’s crying. I asked him if he can get her to stop crying because it makes me anxious hearing her. He said he kept putting her pacifier in her mouth and she wouldn’t stop crying. Exasperated, I take her and tell him that if that doesn’t work he needs to try other things instead of just giving up and letting her cry. She’s a fucking baby. That’s how she communicates. Figure out what’s wrong with her just like I always do. Anyways so I ended up having to have her with me while I was washing things, transferring the milk I pumped and labeling bottles, etc. This happens so often and it’s so infuriating. We became parents at the same time 6 months ago. There’s so many things that bothers me that he does. And whenever I say something, it always turns into an argument instead of him doing better. So I just don’t even say anything anymore because it never goes in a positive direction when I bring something up. I’m so over it… He’s not a bad person overall but he just does stupid shit like what I mentioned. I don’t know… I just needed to vent. It just seems so unfair that he doesn’t put as much effort in as me 😞