Pregnancy Jealousy

I know this sounds totally awful (TTC turns you into a crazy person), does anyone else go through their messages and click on everyone’s profile just to see whether they are pregnant or not - particularly with ladies they haven’t spoken with in a while. So often I see that they have managed to conceive, and my heart feels absolutely shattered. Happy for them, but heartbroken for me. Whilst I know it hurts every time, I still do it, like intentional torture. So many of these women hadn’t been trying for as long as I have, so naturally I feel extremely left behind and frustrated that my body can’t do such a natural process 🥺💔