I feel like I’m ruining my husband life

My husband keeps assuring me that I’m not a burden or problem but I feel like I’m ruining his life as if I don’t bring any value to him. He provides for us and I love that but often time I wish he had met me well off and not in a broken place. Because I don’t feel like I deserve him. We have a three month old together and honestly those two are the reason why I’m holding on to what sanity I can find. Feeling lost and out of my mind as the smallest of things makes me angry with myself and puts me in an escalated pre depression set. I’ve been through depression before and I can now recognize when I’m about to slide into it and it feels like I’m about to. A lot happened in one year, leaving my parent home, marriage, my husband started a business which I’m managing kinda and a baby and I know I should have grace with myself but sometimes I just want everything to stop. My head feels tight and is throbbing and it feels like the world is going faster than I can bare. And advice in how to manage this anyone? P.S I am seeing a therapist just started so I know progress doesn’t start overnight but I’m over everything. I can’t stand being around myself sometimes because I feel like a horrible person.