Dark day need advice

It's been 2 months since I've been able to go to a place I call home. I last everything to hurricane helene. I've been living in a hotel since then. A hotel without a kitchenette, so I can't cook. I only have a microwave and a small fridge. So I make work. I'm constantly eating out. Wasting money on food. I have to buy Christmas for my kids. I have to save to move. I have to buy things just to survive. So instead of people coming to me and asking me if I need help. I'm degraded dehumanized disregarded like trash. I'm told I'm on vacation and just gave my kids to mother in law . That's it's my fault we're in thos situation. It's my fault the house flooded. It's my fault my kids don't have what they need. My fault my fault my fault. That's all I hear. I sit here constantly on the phone with fema or other places finding ways to move on if I csnt get help from fema. But every door is closed in my face. Being told how to spend my money. What to do with my children etc etc. I just can't take it anymore. Obviously, my name can't or won't be defended when I'm not in a room. I'm trashed. And I'm supposed to sit here and deal with it loke it doesn't bother me at all.