Feeling like a horrible mom

I’m really really struggling to feel like a good mother right now. Some backstory is my ex husband cheated on me and hit me pretty bad and broke our window (he hasn’t always been this way). I left him while 7 months pregnant with our daughter. My 20 month old son watches so much tv for the first time in his life, I have a much shorter and stronger temper. I’m a single mom now. Im not taking care of our house and I feel like im just completely depressed and checked out. I always tell myself it will be easier when im not pregnant anymore, but then I know postpartum is coming. I am angry at my life. I’m lonely and my son doesn’t have half the life he used to have. I always make sure he knows he’s loved, he’s well fed and he seems really happy and content and I try to always do stuff with him, like today we went swimming at the ymca but I just feel I’m not the mother I used to be. Has anyone else suffered with this while healing from abuse, divorce or being pregnant? What can I do to pull myself out of this slump?

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I’m so sorry you are experiencing this. It sounds so hard so sending lots of strength your way. Could counselling help? It sounds like it might help you to process all you’ve been through.

First of all, your son watching TV is wayyyyy better than watching his mom get beat & his dad crash out. You feeling depressed & checked out is your body’s way of disassociating from & processing the stress that you just endured. It took me many months to get out of the brain fog that hits after a chaotic situation & I gave myself sympathy until it started affecting the cleanliness of my house, my appetite, & my sons extreme emotions. It takes a lot of time to heal, but there’s nobody that can make you do it except yourself & God. Keep pushing to be the mother you want to be & accept yourself as a thriving survivor because who knows what that man could’ve done to you & YOUR kids in the future. Pray & prioritize. You got this momma.

You can always call me if you need to vent I'm in the same boat only I'm about due any day now

@korynna hey I’m going to send you a message

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