I lost my cool today

Can’t stop crying. Can’t stop replaying everything in my head. Back story my 2.5 year old girl has been sick for 3 weeks now, with whatever cold is going around. I’m 35+ weeks pregnant. I took her to the doctor last Tuesday, prescribed her antibiotics for an ear infection. She’s been in nasty moods this whole time, but miserable, won’t eat, she’s tired. Scream crying over literally everything. Well, three weeks in and I lost it. We got home just her and I because her dad was working late. She started screaming because I couldn’t pick her up right away, and then wouldn’t stop even when I did pick her up. She cried so hard that she started throwing up (this is because of her horrible cough). I lost it. I raised my voice at her and said “this is exactly why I said stop crying!!” So now I’m covered in puke, so is she and now she’s screaming at my for taking off her clothes. And all the while she’s gagging from crying and I’m trying to get the bowl in front of her to catch it. Needless to say. I was a bitch to my kid. I should’ve comforted her. I was so overwhelmed and alone and it was just so loud. And those aren’t excuses. I feel lower than low. I feel like my kid deserves better. After everything I got her cleaned up and in new Jammie’s and just cuddled her in a rocking chair until she fell asleep in my arms. Once she was asleep reality hit me of how I treated her and I just started silently sobbing. My poor girl. Her dad’s home now and with her in her room resting. I can’t even tell him I’m so ashamed. Anyways if you made it this far-thanks for reading.