Loathing motherhood

How old is she? It usually gets better, hang in there ❤️

I think u have ppd. Talk to someone k

It sounds like you may be suffering with postpartum depression. Please speak to a doctor as there are teams that are there to help mothers through this incredibly difficult time. You will come out the other end. I hope you are ok. xx

Please speak to someone about how you feel. These sounds like signs that you’re suffering with postpartum depression. Being a mum is super overwhelming at times and I’ve had some very low moments but there’s help out there and so many people you can talk to. I’d recommend speaking to your doctor or health visitor. The health visitors tend to be a bit better as they can signpost you in the right directions and refer you to other professionals who can help. It will get better. It sounds like you’re in a pretty tough place right now but please talk to someone xxx

@Susie she's only 4 weeks old

Oh she's super young. I promise it gets easier. It really really does.

You probably need sleep and just a says rest to do your own thing. Is there anyone who can help you/have her for the day or even over night? Maybe go out and do some Christmas shopping and feel normal for a day. Also if I ever struggled when I had my son, I would take him out to baby groups, show him off on shopping trips or danced with him in the kitchen to my fave music - it really helped our bond 💕

Oh and by the way…. You have intrusive thoughts about the people you love the most, it’s a known fact 🥰 💕

Seek support from your loved ones or local associations, it's normal to feel like this if people are not helping. I don't know if that's your case but it can really make a difference to have support

@Fran I have a great support network and I do use them but I also have a habbit of trying to do it all myself cause I'm a "strong and independent person" persona

It's a very delicate period (postpartum), lots of hormones everywhere, sleeplessness, fatigue, you and your baby getting to know each other. Try to relax as much as possible and accept the help even if it's hard, say yes to it and embrace it! It takes a village, and if not now, when? :)

This is what I’ve been feeling lately especially at night. I feel you. I would never in a million years harm my baby in any way but my mind won’t shut off about doing it. I just feel like a shit parent for feeling like this almost all the time now. During the day it’s better and I get little smiles out of my baby and I think I’m okay it’s just a phase or exhaustion or something but every night the slightest sounds that he makes like he’s gonna wake up soon I just get so angry at him. I hope your doing better though I see you know asked this 2 months ago now

@Janessa honestly I feel better. I've started new medication and I've got more into a routine and more relaxed about it. Don't get me wrong I still have days where I feel like it but I do feel a lot better in myself. Also started talking therapy as well. At least you don't feel alone, feeling that way 😊