I empathise with you massively. Sending lots of love your way 💖
I feel you. The weight gain, changes in my body and lack of identity has made me super insecure and touchy, I feel so unattractive. Can’t fit in my old clothes and wear the same ones most days. I don’t get any time away from my baby apart from a quick shower. I do hour long walks daily with my baby and dog and it does make me feel better. Going to baby groups has also helped x
Motherhood can be challenging and because you are focusing so much on the baby, you tend to forget about yourself and loose yourself in the process. I'm trying to find time to do things to bring me back to my former self. I take at least an hour each day away from baby and hubby takes over, so I can take walk, listen to music or simply watch something I enjoy. It helps me calm down a little bit. On Fri nights my hubby is more awake for baby needs so I can get some good sleep and only wakes me up if he needs to. Also maybe it's just me, but showers are like my therapy now, I leave baby with hubby and go have a 15mins shower with no disturbance, helps me reconnect with myself and think through things. Plus talking to a mommy friend also helps to get some encouragement and reminds me that I'm not alone. Sending you hugs, take heart xx