Lately I wish I wasn’t a mom so I could just kms

First off I know this is sounds dark but there’s no need to worry because I can’t do anything. I think of my child growing up without me and I just can’t. But I just want to die. I’m so tired. I hated my childhood. I hate every aspect of my life and sometimes myself. I have no friends anymore. I thought I made a good choice with my bd but he’s just another asshole. I feel helpless to change things and even if I could I would need to put in so much emotional effort I just don’t have. It’s to the point that I fantasize about going to sleep before I had my baby and not waking up and that makes me feel calm like I can make it through another day. I just needed to get this out. Maybe someone can relate.

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I can definitely relate to all of the above I also think about suicide all the time and don’t really have the emotional support so I just think about my daughter and imagine how hard it would be to grow up without her mom in her life that helps me just try to relax and take it day by day , some days harder than others

Please reach out to a doctor, it sounds like you might be suffering from a postpartum depression. Medication can help.

I relate. I just recently told my BD that if I didn't have my kids, I wouldn't be here.

I felt like this. I’m now 5 months PP and been on medication since he was 6 weeks old. Please seek professional help but if you feel you can’t do that without friends, family or mum groups for support, please speak to them. You’re not alone 💜

I feel the same way sometimes

For people going through the same thing that commented it’s so nice to know I’m not alone. At the same time it really breaks my heart and I don’t want anyone to go through this alone and I hope you are all going to get better and even though we don’t know each other at all and this sounds crazy but we can get through it together

There are highs and lows in life

Even if you don't have ppd and are just having a rough patch in life, I would still consider an antidepressant like zoloft. It kinda numbs you emotionally and will take the edge off how you're feeling. It will make your day to day easier and give you the mental clarity and energy to assess and fix your situation. It's super cheap too

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