PPD

I’m seriously starting to consider checking myself into a psychiatric ward for a bit. I’m so mentally exhausted and keep regretting becoming a young mom. I’m only 20 and I keep thinking to myself “what have I done??” I keep feeling like I’ll never be anything but a mother ever again. I just wanna feel like my own person again and it feels like I gave up my own freedom when I chose to have her but at the same time someone else kinda made the decision for me and I resent them for it. I have no thoughts of hurting my child just myself. It’s making me pretty suicidal to know there’s no going back but I love her so much I just wish she came later in life. Does this feeling go away? I feel like it will I just don’t know how to cope rn when I’m constantly tending to her
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yes this feeling will go away. the first night i brought my baby home i had a bunch of regrets. but the hormones will subside !!! do you have any support at home

You’re definitely not alone feeling like this 🩷 maybe try talking to other people you know who are mums and a similar age I’m 23 and due in March and I feel feelings like this. I just keep trying to remember when we’re in our 40’s we’re going to be the cool mums and still be young enough to do cool things with them 🩷

@Maria thank you and yes. My fiance helps when he can he just works nights so he can’t really help on weekdays but gives me a break in weekend nights. He’s watching her currently while I take a break and I’m starting to feel better already honestly

@Chelsea exactly I can’t wait for my daughter and I to be best friends some day. Don’t let my post scare you. It only feel this way 20% of the time. Most hours I’m smiling with my daughter as she smiles back at. Nothing feels more special than holding them

I checked myself inpatient at 8 months pp due to ppd. I was homicidal ideation and suicidal ideation. If you need to talk I'm here. I can say it does get better. My youngest is now 8 and that's which pregnancy sent me inpatient.

It does get better! I’m a therapist getting certification in maternal mental health, please feel free to reach out and I’d be happy to be a listening ear and friend! PSI is a super great organization with tons of resources for parents navigating these changes! https://www.postpartum.net

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