Sadness

Damn.. what’s causing you to feel like this?

Did you want the other child while you were pregnant? Is this a new feeling? X

Hi. We very much wanted our second son and he is very much loved. But I admit I have moments when I feel regret that we went to 2. I’m so tired, overwhelmed, feel like I’m letting them both down, my first misses own time together and has become very disregulated, I’m dealing with newborn sleep again. It’s been tough. So I feel your pain. I keep reminding myself that this is probably the hardest it will ever be. I take it one minute at a time, I lean on my mummy friends and I cherish the moments that make it worthwhile.

@Lisa no I didn’t … it’s a long story but me and my bd was not on good terms but still was having sex

@LeKenya My bd and I have had a hard 5 years together on and off but only reason we are together now is because I had him.

@Hopeful this is mostly how I feel and I hate it because they didn’t ask to be here but they are and now I feel like I need to stay in order to give them everything they need and more.

So it’s safe to say you’re regretting the relationship, not the child.. it’s HARD sometimes to separate problems from what’s associated with them but the baby isn’t the issue. Just a reminder of the actual problem. Ive felt like my kids father wasn’t worthy of having a child by me before and I shouldn’t have given him the satisfaction of getting me pregnant more than once but I still love my kids. All of them. It’s not their fault that I chose their incapable excuse of a father to create them with but ultimately, they’re still the blessings that came out of the situation.

@LeKenya He’s not a bad person and he does cater to my needs but that’s not the problem. It’s like he always has something wrong with him. He’s been disrespectful to and in front of my family too much. I’ll be 25 in March and he’s only 22. I ask him what are your goals and he says I’ll worry bout me later. We got pregnant when I was 20 and he was 18 . Barely had a life yet of our own . I have goals and things I want to experience and personally I don’t think he really agrees with it.

Feels like I’m taking from him his time and he’s taking away my own free thought. Because I will feel terribly for doing those things . When he thinks life has set in for him and being a dad is what makes his days. We are people outside of our children .

What is the age gap? Did you know orangutans have babies 8 years or more apart? It’s really not normal to have them close together, and this could be why you are feeling this way. Not saying that to make you feel worse, but give yourself a break. You can be sad, but don’t feel guilty about it. Life will improve and retrospectively you’ll be happy with your choice, I’m sure.