Dream homebirth

I didn't get my wish to birth at home I do hope for some moral support as I probably won't be allowed to have any more unfortunately I'm too old boo hoo Question how does one put pool up when in active labor no midwife only partner and 20month old around the home for support 2ndly my pepi came at 38 weeks because of influence stresses how does a woman know when there something wrong as my baby needed oxygen I don't know why More trauma bit at the hospital of peer pressure a massive bill from ambulance I live in povety grrr but such as life here in New Zealand I dream of a homebirth but it won't happen How does the water help with birthing and how does the birthing comb work I failed my birthing dream n my pepi so traumatizing at the hospital In tears 😢 😭 💔 😪 🤧