Is anyone awake that can give advice?

I found out my husband had an intimate emotional relationship with another woman and hid it for 4 years. He lies constantly about dumb things. He drinks to avoid issues, recently found out he drank a whole bottle of tequila in less than 4 days so I don’t what else is wrong bc he lies about a lot of things. Recently found out he spends 1k + a month on a game he has on his phone. Has been doing it for years but I just recently found today. I don’t trust him anymore for obvious reasons and when I asked him to show me his bank account and phone records he said no. I simply want to know the truth and get all the lies out. I don’t know what to do. We’ve had one therapy session since I found out about the emotional cheating but he lied to the therapist about the drinking and about the money he spends on his game. I don’t know what to do. I cannot continue with therapy if there is no honesty. He says he loves me and wants to stay in the marriage but doesn’t think I’ll ever forgive him so he thinks it’s prob best to divorce. Literally said that’s the reason. He has done too much and doesn’t trust I’ll ever forgive him. I get that but I’m the one that has been lied to about a bunch of things for years. I just don’t understand and don’t know what to do.