I hold so much hate inside me - am I wrong??

Just to give you context myself and my grandmother have always been really close (like go out with each other weekly etc) anyway - it was my babies 1st birthday and invited family to come (bar one of my cousins) who is extremely toxic not just with her mouth but physically. I didn’t want her there at the risk she would cause trouble! So I didn’t invite her. My grandma then didn’t attend my babies 1st birthday or get him a card because I wouldn’t invite my toxic family member. It’s now going to be my grandmas birthday (we’ve not spoken properly in 6 months (since my babies 1st birthday) and it’s her 90th, they’ve invited us to her party, but I’ve declined because why should I when she let
My baby down????

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It’s like I hold a hate inside me, like why would she have done that to my baby after how close we was.
My other cousin (toxic one) just uses her for money etc and I’ve never even done that. I’ve always treated
My grandma with respect

I'd get her a card but I wouldn't go. Especially if the toxic family member is going to be there.

even if she didn’t get my baby one for his first birthday :( xxx

This could be her last big birthday. I’d try and just put the hurt aside and be the bigger person. It could be an opportunity to mend bridges.
How do the rest of the family manage your toxic cousin?
Your baby wouldn’t remember if she came to the 1st birthday or not so I’d just focus on your relationship

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Dude... She's 90. That's a big deal. Maybe I'm wrong but just avoid the cousin and keep peace. She's 90!

My grandma is turning 90 this year too and I don't know how many more birthdays she has left.

please x

this is what hurt me the most that she didn’t make the effort for my boy knowing this….. she’ll never be able to come to his first birthday :( because it’s been and gone….

All because of my horrible family member x

most of my family have stopped speaking to
My grandma because she puts our toxic cousin first and she’s done some pretty awful things to people. Xx

It isn’t worth holding on to this anger, especially with a woman so old 🥺 You never know how many birthdays that she has left (as horrible as that sounds) and you said you’ve always been close, you don’t want to lose that when you may not have long left with her. I would just have a conversation with her. Try and sort it out with her. However, if you are not going to be able to get passed this, DO NOT go to the party if there is a risk that you will have some sort of outburst and ruin a big day for her ❤️

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My sister (youngest, 24) has two kids, 4 & 1, and i (oldest, 30) just have my one who’s 6mo old right now, so i ask her for advice or call her to vent about things sometimes. Well im tired of her turning around and telling my other family members that I’m “losing my sh*t.” Literally have not lost my sh*t nor have i ever freaked out to her about my baby, i just call her to talk and tell her what stage my baby is in or talk through how im feeling, but she chooses to tell people that im like a complete nutcase or something which worries me that my family is going to start being judgmental about me as a mother or looking at me funny like I’m some fragile ticking time bomb.

What would you do in this situation? I’m already pretty much decided that I’ll stop telling her anything about my struggles, but I’m almost at the point where i feel like it should be confronted because she, of all people, should understand what I’m going through.