Don't want to tell people I'm pregnant

I'm 22 weeks pregnant and have only told a few friends but that's it. I don't want to tell anyone and frankly, some days, want to act like I'm not pregnant. This is my 3rd pregnancy with my husband and it was rough starting out. I found out the same day we found out we all had covid so that was already fun, but I had to go to the ER because the doctor at my walk in clinic was worried it was ectopic. So I'm already crying and scared because of how my husband would react, had to tell him, then I spent 6 hours by myself in the ER. Thankfully, it wasn't ectopic but just a painful complex ovarian cyst. My husband was very adamant that if we were to have an "accident" that I should get an abortion, and well, we got a surprise. After spending 6 hours crying my eyes out by myself, not getting home until midnight, he wanted to talk about it, but I didn't. For days after, he still wanted me to get an abortion, and I barely spoke a word to him. We still were all incredibly sick from covid to make this all worse. I cried for 4 days straight barely leaving our room while he took care of our kids. Then all of a sudden, one morning, he asked if he could change his mind, and started talking about wanting to keep the baby like it was no big deal. Like he didn't just make me go through the thought of aborting our baby, calling my obs office talking about my options, like he didn't just make me feel like the pregnancy was my fault. For days. Despite what he thought, I kept the baby because I just couldn't live with the guilt of it especially after having to see the babies heartbeat on an ultrasound. I feel like because of this situation and him, I feel a great amount of shame around this pregnancy. It's been hard to be excited, I get nervous about telling people because they already judged a bit for our last baby, I pull away from him often when he tries to show he cares because sometimes he does things that make it hard to believe and likes it's all just fake. It's getting hard to hide the pregnancy at this point and I don't know what to do. I feel panicky when I think about having to tell everyone. I feel ashamed because of my husband's initial reactions. This is probably all over the place but I just need to get out some thoughts.. Also, disclaimer, I'm aware my husband is allowed to have his own feelings towards something like this. It was hard for me because he knew I wouldn't be able to get an abortion. And I also support women who need to get abortions for their circumstances and their bodies. This is just my personal feelings about it towards myself.