Stressed trying to get to maternity leave

As a U.S. mama who is an administrator at a minority serving university, I am STRESSED. The thought of going on leave was overwhelming in normal circumstances but now I'm genuinely worried for my students. I am trying to not let this affect me physically and consequently the baby but I find myself losing sleep, anxious, and alternating between feelings of anger and helplessness. I guess I don't really have a question -- just needed to vent.