I’m really sorry you are experiencing this. I went through this and it does get better. There are a particular treatment ( psilocybin) that was very helpful for me- so much so that I recently started supporting a clinical trial. I’m happy to share more if you want to DM me
I am 9months PP and whilst I still have good and bad days by 6 months were definitely less but everyone heals differently. My little ones bad sleeping was a big contributing factor and I'd get up dreading how the day was going to turn out. It helped by talking to friends as I just couldn't sit there and pretend I was ok. I don't want to go on medication. Just try and get into a routine and get support around you. Hope you feel better soon x
I felt really down around that time too. Crying daily and just couldn't deal with the change. But it does get better! Now, 5 months pp i feel so much better, my partner is super supportive and sometimes all you need is a hug. For me it also helps that by now the little one gives something back, the smiles and giggles really make the day