One minute I’m ok the next I’m not…

I have days when my energy is at zero, and I use those moments to rest. Then, there are days when I get a burst of energy and confidence, and I take full advantage of it—cleaning, organizing, running errands, and even doing something for myself that doesn’t involve sleeping. But then, there are days like today, when this pregnancy takes over my emotions and weighs me down. I feel insecure. I start overthinking my life and future. Even though life is good, and I’m incredibly blessed to be a stay-at-home mom to my almost three-year-old, I can’t help but wonder if this is it for me. Motherhood? Is that really all? But then again, is that so bad? Motherhood is a lot of work—the hardest and coolest thing I’ve ever done. Still, my mind loves to play tricks on me, whispering that I’m not doing enough and that I should be more. Before this pregnancy, I don’t think these thoughts ever got to me. If they did, I must’ve brushed them off. But today, I can’t seem to escape them. I find myself crying over what I want my life to be or look like. I remember feeling this exact way with my first pregnancy. And here I am again. All I can do is write this out, hoping I’m not alone and, most importantly, pray about it.