Hes doing it alone in the bedroom.

Ive been trying to show him affection for two days and he rejects me even now. The last time I did anything he was "sick" and kept joking I raped him. If I do stuff it's bad. If I don't its bad. I am losing my damn mind. I want to be loved. To feel attractive. I feel angry. I feel dead on the inside and losing touch with what is normal. I know no relationship is normal but when he does that stuff it makes me feel after I just asked him today like complete shit. I don't know why I keep pretending it will work out. I wanna move on. I wanna be with someone who loves me. Who wants me.