I’m pregnant and don’t want to be.

I’m struggling to face the fact that now that I’ve finally just gotten my life back I have to return to feeling like I’m not even a person and I barely exist to other people. I feel like a fool. I hate this so much. Breastfeeding, caring for a newborn, finding places to feed/ change diapers. Going to the store with TWO children. Watching the body I worked hard to take care of get ruined all over again. Hair falling out, teeth rotting. I can’t do this.