Might not be PPD but sounds like PPA - much less diagnosed but sounds similar. You should talk to your GP they may be able to help, Alternatively you could find a therapist that specializes in it and see if they can help you identify the root of the cause!
@India thank you so much🤍
Yea darling, ppd can come in all shapes and sizes. Some people get intrusive thoughts or some people have general anxiety, i struggled with adapting to my new life and supporting a baby, my boyfriend and myself all at once. I was very fortune to have a lovely mother and sister inlaws to help me because i don't talk to my side of the family. I love walking so that helped me alot, when i felt overwhelmed or was getting stressed i would get in my car with my baby and dogs and walk for an hour. Find what works for you darling x