I accepted that everyone in life goes through something sometimes it's dosent mean you will stay like that forever
I had postpartum psychosis back in 2021. I spent a week in a psychiatric hospital and cps was called because I was honest about my thoughts. It’s taken me a long time to move past the guilt. It’s possible. I feel for you and will pray ❤️
I mean remembering that literally no one would chose to go through that or have those thoughts is the most helpful thing. Theres no guilt to feel. Brains are complex but they are also dumb and mean sometimes.