Miscarriage grief - when did you start feeling yourself?

I wouldn't wish the feelings emotionally, mentally and physically on anyone, it's horrendous. I tried to go back to work last week. My head just didn't feel with my body, ached everywhere, couldn't concentrate. Lasted a few hours ended up crying, going home early. Like you literally just feel so broken, and you can feel it like nothing before, I've never had tiredness so bad, feel literally sick. Keep getting angry with life and myself. Obviously going to take it one day at a time, but I am totally drained. I want to feel better, feel like a burden to others especially my son when I am so up and down still. 😥 Work are being super patient and lovely with me, I am blessed with this, but just feel a bit useless, and not all "there". It's so bloody hard 💔

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I still struggle around that time of year

It's so hard to deal with 💔 are you receiving any support? I've finally reached out for professional help, which I regret not doing after my first miscarriage years ago. If you ever need to chat feel free to message me, it can feel super lonely going through the grief afterwards

I’ve had 5 losses in total and i usually feel ok couple weeks but this time i feel even worse than ever and it seems to be dragging on x

I don’t think the grief ever leaves. There will always be something that brings it back and makes you think who would they be, what would they be like. An anniversary, a due date, baby loss awareness week, a new baby. It just gets easier with time. I fell pregnant again about 8 weeks after our loss and it wasn’t until they were born I felt some sort of peace (baby would’ve been due a month before the twins arrived and in between there was baby loss awareness week too). We’ve just passed the one year anniversary of the loss which was a hard time but now having the twins it did feel easier than the other milestones we’ve passed (Christmas etc)

I felt bad for a couple of months and then even months on I'd have days where something would remind me, or we'd had another month of not getting pregnant when trying etc and I'd feel sad again thinking about it all. Now I've had my boy it doesn't cross my mind very often, and if it does it's more like 'if I had had that baby successfully, then I wouldn't have this wonderful boy in my life, it would have been a different baby with a different personality' because my toddler is so joyful and lovely!

I had a miscarriage 10 almost 11 years ago and I still have thoughts of what could have been. What my baby would look like. How grown they'd be. How different my life would be. I think its grief that changes and you get used to the hurt. However, until the hormones are out of your system it can be overwhelming and random crying episodes are totally normal. I would talk to a therapist to maybe sort through your feelings. Sending you love girl. I know it's hard🩷🩵💔

I think it stays with you always. But physically I felt better after a month or so (mc at 12 weeks). Went back to work a week after, but was definitely not all there. Emotionally it’s such a big thing and I think I’m still processing 1.5 years on, even tho I also have a 3 year old and 6 months old. I really liked a book called ‘the baby loss guide’ by Zoe Clark Coates. I also had some CBT therapy and support from the charity’Saying Goodbye’. You do get stronger carrying the grief and the grief becomes less of a scary, overwhelming thing. But I feel it’ll always be there. I saw baby’s tiny face and I miss them and wish I could have gotten to know them. We named them and made an entrance in the hospital book of remembrance and had a little ceremony in our garden. It helped me a bit 🤗

I MC 26th Jan and I’ve accepted what’s happened and at peace with that but I’m definitely no where near feeling myself

With both of ours, I started to feel more like myself after around 4 weeks. There were still hard times however such as when due dates came round! There isn’t a right or wrong amount of time

Physically I was okay after a couple of weeks but emotionally it still hurts a bit but not all the time, only when something reminds me of my loss. It's been quite a few years. I think it depends a lot on you process grief in general. Wish you all the love and support and sending loads of virtual hugs.

Thank you for sharing your experiences and the kind thoughtful messages❤️. I'm sorry so many of us have been through this, it is horrific. My son was asking today "when am I going to be a big brother" "I'm going to be the best big bro" he knows nothing about my latest pregnancy and it falling apart, obviously just a thing he came out with but it hit me. It was random and I took it on the chin and just said hopefully one day. I'm nearly 2 weeks on now, still tearing up unexpectedly, getting overwhelmed easily. I'm trying to do things normally like attempt work and I just can't seem to function very well.