Postpartum rage

Some days I had to lock myself in the bathroom, fan on, sink on, tub on and feral scream into a pillow AT LEAST three times a day. I could also still be heard from the other side of the house 🫣😳

Slapped my husband, twice, on the leg 😞

Please don't be afraid to seek help for this like counseling and medication. Within a week of starting an antidepressant for ppd and ppa I was way calmer and I often cringe at how much I yelled at my kids the first 4 years of their lives. I take Cymbalta as I also have fibromyalgia but there are so many different options your doctor can give you. And if you're still nursing there are safe medications you can still take.

ripped my pumps off and threw them across the room 😅 not my best moment

I don’t know what the worst thing was but all I know is it was really bad for me. Especially during the first 2 months PP. Id Get upset, frustrated, and irritated over the smallest things as well and explode. I personally felt like I had to see a therapist and I have been, and it’s been really helpful. I’ve also verbalized it to my husband that I felt like I have no control over it but with therapy I’ve been able to realize when I’m starting to get irritated or annoyed and I safely step away. I also bought noise canceling headphones and use it when I rock my newborn because sometimes the hysterical cries would set me off. I just put music and dance while I hold him.

I’m a thrower so most of it was just people leaving things out and I’d chuck them half way across the house. The worst was grabbing a pack of cookies out of my daughter’s hand and throwing it so hard that it broke our butter dish

I HATED my pets. Don't get me wrong, they were cared for, fed, cleaned etc but I couldn't stand them being anywhere near me so they definitely lacked in the love/cuddles department for awhile but we've made up for it now.

That sounds exactly like me. I would scream/raise my voice and I feel so bad because I don't want them to be traumatized. This happened with both postpartums.

One time I screamed, left my baby’s room slamming the door, and went to my room to yell profanity bc she wouldn’t sleep.🙃 it scared her and I’ve never felt more guilty. I calmed myself down and went to apologize to her. I can’t imagine how she felt. Soon after I decided it wasn’t worth it to fight her to take naps. Another time when my mom was staying with me (husband was out of town) I was rocking my baby aggressively and saying, “shut up shut up shut up” when my mom walked in. She was like… you okay…? lol I wasn’t

I don’t get angry towards my baby but I get BEYOND IRRITATED with my dogs. I know they can’t help it because they had a big life change too, but they are constantly begging for attention/to play with their toy. I put them outside and they whine and scratch the door to come inside. They come inside and sulk around and ask to go outside. I get SO MAD and I can’t help it! I don’t want baby to see that but my goodness!

I sadly lost my temper but felt a lot better (shameful to admit that I felt good doing this btw) after a stressful morning with the little one I put her to her room closed the door and felt so much rage on the situation not being able to control I lost it and grabbed the walker and threw it across the living room hitting the wall...but it felt good to just throw whatever was closest to me ngl That was my most recent time

Hit my husband and told him I hate him then told him I didn't want the baby anymore and left to my sister's while he cared for our newborn. It was only that one time I immediately felt guilty and got help. I'm so blessed he didn't leave my ass. We are in a much better mental space now. ❤️

Threw stuff. Shouted at my baby. Shouted at my dog. Punched the walls. Had it so bad.

I used to growl at my LG and throw my phone/pillows/anything she was trying to grab that she wasn't meant to, across the room. Most of my rage was directed at my partner though, frequently snapped at him and was cold to him for the smallest things, sometimes for no reason at all. Still get an odd flair up every now and then but no where near as bad

some much needed context, my mother is a drug addict and i found out she got high at my house with my baby here and when i respectfully asked her to leave, more than once, she got in my face and was acting like she was going to hit me, so i beat the crap out of her. not my proudest moment but we don’t talk anymore so

I hated everyone including my partner ended my relationship, caused numerous arguments in the families, planned to kill his family if they tried to take my baby away, shouted at my baby, told my mum I made the worst mistake every becoming a mother. Eventually I agreed to go get medicated and since then it’s been life changing I couldn’t cope without the help - I feel soo guilty for the way I was but hormones are a scary thing and post partum can be traumatic for everyone involved, don’t delay getting help I wish I did it sooner. Now I’m picking up the pieces but slowly getting there and feeling my spark come back and enjoying life again 💖

I throw things. Makes me feel so immature.

Ladies I just want to say thank you for sharing your moments. It’s not easy to voice the things we’ve said/done. Sending everyone a hug. 🫂 I always think “why am I the only one going through this” especially when I see my friends having babies and posting how happy they are all the time. then I make a post like this one and remind myself that others are also going through the same thing. We are strong ❤️

I use to let all my stress build up and then at witching hour I would scream, and then start talking to myself pacing the room saying horrible things and then when I calmed down I would be like "wtf just happened"