Put off going places

Today I took my kids to a soft play they are 2&5 my husband came with me and just sat down the whole time I was tired to say the least it was packed my 2 year old fell and hit his head and he obviously cried all these other mums just looks at me shaking there heads saying I should have kept a better eye on him I was trying ok he’s fast there was lot of other children I was a second to late to catch him i automatically wanted to leave there as soon as possible because all the judging and if I’m honest I felt like the worse mum ever I nearly cried I look my son over to a chair to check his he was ok they was all still bogging and my husband still just sat there on his phone were meant to go swimming tomorrow he’s told me he’s not coming because he don’t want too because I threw a tantrum today apparently and now I have to take both kids swimming by myself I’m extremely worried because I couldn’t even handle a soft play I never want to step foot back in that soft play again Husband honestly gets on my nerves because whenever I’m upset it’s always ur having a tantrum like a child and he leaves and stays round his mums he feels like an annoying friend we don’t do couple stuff he’s glued to his game or watching YouTube as soon as we go out as a family he wants to go home as soon as possible or doesn’t help