I just need a penpal or something lol

Yall I truly struggle with finding new friends in my 30s, especially now that I'm a mama! I feel like I am too introverted to get out there and make anything happen, and now I'm too busy being a mama to a toddler to make any effort. I just wish I had someone to talk to regularly. We could text. Maybe even video chat one day. I like the pods on here for the live social connection but there is no way to truly connect with a single person this way they are so random. I am a sweet soul who loves meaningful deep conversations about life, spirituality or philosophy type topics. But I can also talk crap about celebrity gossip, TV shows, movies, etc. I just hate how dang hard it is to find authentic people I can talk to without the ghosting that inevitably happens for this or that reason. I sware finding friends is worse than dating! Ugh