Parents

Hi guys I really just wanted to come on here to vent, little backstory when I was 18 and got pregnant my parents kicked me to the curb, I was homeless for 3 months then got my own apartment, I lived alone and worked full time and came back to an empty apartment. Being alone pregnant was the most depressedI’ve ever been in my life. After I had my baby I ended up having financial difficulties which led me to be homeless again, my parents refused to help me, I slept on the street and they laughed at me and mocked me saying I deserved all this, since I was so excited to be an adult when I was little. My dad decided to move in multiple of his friends that are women. Giving them housing and prioritizing these women. I was homeless for a year, my parents refused to even give me food and water, they blocked me, and I later found out that my dad was telling people that he was patiently waiting for a phone call to say I d!ed while being homeless due to extreme cold temperatures and being so vulnerable with no shelter. The point is I’m hurt. I’m angry with my parents and I always ask why? Why didn’t they put me up for adoption and give me a chance for a better life, my mom says she regretted giving birth to me. I don’t get it. I crave the love of a mother and a father and I will never get it. Having deadbeat parents who don’t love you is the worst feeling in the world. As a mother I will NEVER understand treating your kid like that. The only peace I get is knowing that my kids will only know love, they will never suffer the way I suffered. Seeing other people have a good mom and a dad makes me feel bad about myself. Of course I’m happy for them but I just feel so bad and I don’t understand what I did to deserve this. Just so everyone knows I’m stable and have my own place now, I’m just upset I’ll never have real parents, and have a hard time accepting the way I was treated.