I’m 19 days pp and have been thick in the baby blues until last week. Allow yourself to feel and cry. But also try and remember you’ve just birthed a baby human. Hormones are high, guilt is high, you’ll be grieving your old life and will just be questioning everything but that’s all natural. It gets better. I ended up watching Lee Evans and taking folic acid. After a couple days I felt better and better each day. You’ve got this and we’re all here for you xx
@Kathryn Yes, that's so true. I just keep worrying because I feel happy now, we didnt think we could have kids and now we have two amazing boys and I keep feeling like something has to go wrong 🥺. You are so right though, I guess it is normal to think more about these things, I'm so worried about illness and dying and leaving the boys 🫨, it does put things in perspective, but it feels weird when I should just be thinking about new life. I do feel so much better this time, and I know life will feel normal again at some point but it's just another massive change!
@Jade Yes I have been crying lots, which makes me feel better and my husband is super supportive. The birth and everything was so much better this time but I didn't have as much pain relief so I felt everything and think I'm still processing it all. Thank you, yes we are all in this together, it'll get better, just a lot of emotions right now!
I’ll reply to you as I’m having a better day today (day 4) than I was yesterday, yesterday I was a mess and was googling whether you could take yourself back to hospital. The life and death thing I think is normal. I remember being quite alarmed at thinking so much about it when I had my first daughter it was frightening but I think it makes sense, you’re a parent now and morality takes on a whole new meaning as you are someone’s everything and you are the glue holding it all together. I think try keep a check of yourself and keep talking and then you’ll be more likely to recognise if this is the normal postpartum ride or if it is edging more to a longer term dip. I’m EBF and have a 2.5 year old so I’m feeling the guilt coupled with having had a section and therefore not able to do too much. Do feel free to message me. Xx