Baby blues

I’ll reply to you as I’m having a better day today (day 4) than I was yesterday, yesterday I was a mess and was googling whether you could take yourself back to hospital. The life and death thing I think is normal. I remember being quite alarmed at thinking so much about it when I had my first daughter it was frightening but I think it makes sense, you’re a parent now and morality takes on a whole new meaning as you are someone’s everything and you are the glue holding it all together. I think try keep a check of yourself and keep talking and then you’ll be more likely to recognise if this is the normal postpartum ride or if it is edging more to a longer term dip. I’m EBF and have a 2.5 year old so I’m feeling the guilt coupled with having had a section and therefore not able to do too much. Do feel free to message me. Xx

I’m 19 days pp and have been thick in the baby blues until last week. Allow yourself to feel and cry. But also try and remember you’ve just birthed a baby human. Hormones are high, guilt is high, you’ll be grieving your old life and will just be questioning everything but that’s all natural. It gets better. I ended up watching Lee Evans and taking folic acid. After a couple days I felt better and better each day. You’ve got this and we’re all here for you xx

@Kathryn Yes, that's so true. I just keep worrying because I feel happy now, we didnt think we could have kids and now we have two amazing boys and I keep feeling like something has to go wrong 🥺. You are so right though, I guess it is normal to think more about these things, I'm so worried about illness and dying and leaving the boys 🫨, it does put things in perspective, but it feels weird when I should just be thinking about new life. I do feel so much better this time, and I know life will feel normal again at some point but it's just another massive change!

@Jade Yes I have been crying lots, which makes me feel better and my husband is super supportive. The birth and everything was so much better this time but I didn't have as much pain relief so I felt everything and think I'm still processing it all. Thank you, yes we are all in this together, it'll get better, just a lot of emotions right now!

Hi Chloe, I thought I’d check in to see how you’re doing. I hope you’re feeling a little better today x

@Jade aw that's so sweet 🥺 thank you. Feeling a little better, trying to get out for short dog walks or coffee which is helping. Still having some moments of being down, but I'm just trying to ride the wave and remember that this is temporary. How are you feeling now too?x

@Chloe are the baby blue clouds lifting? It will take a while and you may not feel yourself for a while but you’ve got this. It does get better but remember you’re still human. I’m now 23 days pp and randomly cry but it’s not 24/7 like it was. Try and watch something that makes you smile and laugh x

@Jade Yes I'm definitely seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, I'm very nervous about next week when my husband goes back to work and I'll have to manage with two kids alone but just trying to remain positive and know that we will get into a new routine. Oh yes, we are binging below deck which is helping haha

Hope you’re doing okay now x

@Jade hey! Oh thank you for checking in! I'm doing much better this week, went for a dog walk alone with both kids for the first time and tomorrow I'm going to drive to a soft play cafe so slowly getting my independence back and some normality back. Still having some low moments but they are coming a bit less often. It's a rollercoaster haha. How are you? x