Needing a virtual friend

I’m kinda at the point where i want to give up. It’s hard as it is feeling like I don’t belong in a world where I don’t fit in to people around me. I’ve tried looking for friends on here over a hundred times probably by now and no luck. I’m looking for a friend who calls just to check in, sparks up weird conversations, asks about the kids and just want to bs around. Seems no one is like that anymore ig. No one wants to take the initiative. I’m 22 years old, I’m a mother to a little boy, I have BPD, PTSD, oncoming ocd. Sometimes I’m up and sometimes I’m down. I’m really kind but I can be a bit much at times. I’m a sahm who sits in her thoughts daily even in a room full of laughter, I’m a criminal justice major doing online college. I’m tired of feeling alone and empty.. I’ve never had that friend you talk to everyday or spend the night with, have playdates or movie nights or shared dinners. Never had the friend that just walks in and acts like she’s at home with you. Not even my own little circle at school as people only used me to make their assignments more efficient for their own benefit. I just want a friend 😓 but this is me inbox me if you want my Snapchat but for the love of god only text me if your actually wanting a friend to talk to because I can’t take the feeling of abandonment or lonely anymore