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TW: mental health I got diagnosed with PTSD from losing my aunt in a very traumatic way. We were super close, I viewed her as a sister. It was a few years ago. I don’t necessarily want to get into it but I never processed it. I have always been terrified of the mental toll postpartum can have on you. I’ve seen my grandma suffer, my aunt, and a coworker of mine. When I hear these stories it triggers my anxiety and I get horrible intrusive thoughts and panic attacks. I suddenly feel like I have no control over myself. I worked with a therapist before I got pregnant and it helped, however with being pregnant, there’s weeks it’s so bad I can’t stand the thought of being alone. I saw a psychiatrist who explained it more into detail why I feel that way, I felt a lot better and less crazy. She wanted me to take lexapro. I just got the ok from my doctor but I haven’t had anxiety since. Idk if I should hold out on taking it as maybe I won’t get bad again, or if I should start taking it now before it does get bad again. I feel there’s a stigma around meds and I am so scared to take them. Especially since I’m super sensitive to meds. I can’t really tell my family as they aren’t as understanding so I came here.