@jayna aghh this seriously makes me feel better,thank you!
@jayna one more thing I forgot to add the only thing is the manager at the time had access to everything and could see what I was viewing and she told another guy who didn’t like me and they were making sexual jokes towards me and saying things so I think everyone saw
Also, so what ? Happened. Sucks. I believe specially AFTER having children, other people also must realize what a mixed bag of tricks life can be. And yes you might have needed reprieve from whatever else was going on life to the point that this incident occurred at work! So maybe you yourself & they can give you some grace too.
F*ck them folks! Do your job and go home. It happens. Let ppl talk. You were in a bathroom not out in open exposed.
Every1 gave great advice. Ignore them keep your head held high n who cares we r all adults. Would they have said anything if u were a man? Probably not so who cares dont let them b sexist to u jc you’re a woman. We all have needs u can just act like it never happened and that person made it up due to jealousy or something Idk honestly that was so wrong of her to go and blab like that just goes to show u she can’t b trusted.
That was so out of order for the manager to do that.
I think it’s childish the way they reacted you’re a grown up and needed a little something, it’s not a big deal and I bet they do it. Go back and keep your chin up
You said you ‘feel like a terrible person, disgusting and suicidal’, you are in quite a vulnerable state, so I think you need to seek medical help then an alternative job asap. I don’t know where you are, but the medical team can help you with sick pay/job steps, once your head is in a safe space. Your life is valuable, so do not go back to the place which may cause you to end it. Masturbation does not make you a terrible, disgusting person, so don’t stop doing what personally works to relieve your stress. Just never do it on any workplace WiFi.
There is nothing wrong with you. <3 Keep your head up xx
If you need the job to pay your rent just walk in and keep your head high. They might think it’s a little weird but you went and took care if your business in the bathroom not like you were at your desk you’ll be fine just act like nothing happened only one person heard or knows and the rest of people know from word of mouth they don’t know if it’s true just pretend you didn’t