@Tamarin I know abt you mean. She was up from 6am until 13:00, I can see she is really really tired and sleepy, she is ill as well. But just won’t let me rock her. She isn’t able to self settle to sleep yet,
You aren't a horrible mum at all. She is a regular child, who wants some autonomy. She knows that when you lay her horizontally, she goes asleep, and she wants to stay awake to not miss anything. You are being hard on yourself "can't even settle my own baby". You should see the reality you've done amazing and made her so happy, that she wants every second with you
Can you try rocking vertically? I have been doing this lately with my boy. I put his head on my shoulder and I place my face very close to his face and he wraps around me like a koala with his legs 😂 he seems to enjoy that position and I don't have to rock that much. Just swing slowly. Very often I close my eyes and feeling his warm face makes me feel so sleepy and relaxed 😌
My little one only has one nap now, maybe she’s doing it when she’s not feeling tired yet? I often see parents more upset that kids won’t go to sleep without being rocked. Is she able to snuggle down and go to sleep just by herself?