Are there any moms in this group who smoke cigarettes??

I quit when I found out I was pregnant and now that the baby is out he’s 1 month old now and I got back into it. I’m not breastfeeding so I don’t have to worry about that but I feel so guilty I honestly don’t want to quit. It sounds bad and I’m afraid of the judgement from people who knew I was pregnant and my neighbors n such. I just don’t wanna be perceived as a bad mom I know I shouldn’t care what people think but it’s hard sometimes. I always shower after smoking n make sure to brush my teeth. I’m always cautious, and my baby is always taken care of. So why do I feel so guilty? Part of it is also because of other moms who put up these expectations for us and what we should n shouldn’t be doing. But I’m just looking for some reassurance right now because I love smoking and I’ve already sacrificed so much for my little one I already feel like an empty shell of who I use to be, I just wanna be happy to be a mom but everything about motherhood so far makes me feel trapped.. please no hate or negative comments I already feel bad, I just need to know if anyone is in a similar situation..

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I feel like more people are accepting the moms who smoke weed but cigarettes are like a no no? I don’t understand because it’s still smoke? I have nothing against weed but to me it’s basically the same as smoking cigarettes. So why is it not socially acceptable ?

The guilt I'd say comes from the society that thinks weed is more natural and healthy etc etc when in reality they can both cause harm and be bad for you beyond just smokin them but mentally and physically. Personally I'd say a cig smoking mom who doesn't breastfeed isn't any worse than a weed smoking mom that breastfeeds but that's also something people argue about because cigarettes are like proven to be severely damaging but there isn't enough proof for people to feel shame about weed. But at least you know the risks and take precautions and don't pretend that everything is okay about cigs and not harmful

Tldr; major evidence says cigarettes are bad and not enough studies have been done for weed to know so people can always pull that card out and shame cig moms immediately without thinking anything more than "cigarettes bad. Cigarette mom is the worst"

I was a heavy smoker for about 5 years before I got pregnant with my daughter. Stopped cold turkey when I found out I was pregnant with her. I started smoking again even though I said I wouldn’t at around 5 weeks postpartum. I felt guilty at first but honestly, it helps with my stress. I get extremely overwhelmed at times and it gives me an excuse to step outside and get a moment to myself, even if it is a quick 5 minutes. I’m never near her with a cigarette so I don’t really see the issue

Also gonna add that I don’t breastfeed either lol

You do you girl. You need that 5 minutes outside away from the chaos of life. It's mental health self care. You're doing everything right.