It sounds like your husband is selfish. His role is to make you happy. The baby needs his/her mum to be happy and calm, so the husband is supposed to create a safe and loving environment for his wife.
Parenthood can bring up unresolved childhood stuff for all of us. I used to worry I'd be a terrible parent because I grew up with neglect and abuse and it'd be hard for me to model something different for my kids, or relate to them if I could somehow be loving. It's worth talking to him about what it brings up for him when he sees you parenting your child. It's also definitely worth seeing a therapist. It's painful but you're doing the best you can and it sounds like he has it in him to show up as a partner and a parent if he works through what's the barrier for him. You can do this ❤️
I’m so sorry to hear that. That’s really hard to go through. May your marriage turn around for the better. May these challenges strengthen you as a unit and bring y’all closer together instead of driving you further apart. May you see each other as the team you once were and know that things can be even better than before if only you change your mindset for it to be. I have not experienced this first hand, but I believe in love and I believe in marriage and I’m hoping and praying for the best for y’all. No major life changes are easy, let alone a whole new human being. May his mindset shift that you might become one once more and that he can see that being a great dad is one piece of being a great husband. His marriage depends on it. May he see that. And may you handle him gently through the process. You don’t deserve to be taking it all on alone, so may your situation change! Hoping and praying for a turn around for y’all, and I’m so sorry it’s not easy in this season!