Thank you
I was the same way, rocky relationship and all. I will say it didn't make the relationship better, but it is giving us the motivation to work on what's not working. We've been together 10 years almost and we love each other so much but the communication needed a lot of work. Still does. But we are teammates and we are working together to mend it. It will only work if both partners can admit to the faults in the relationship and vow to work on them. As for the baby, I saw every ultrasound and felt every kick and spoke and sang to my baby all the time and still when she was born my first words were "holy shit there was a baby in there! I just had a baby!" And 4 months later it still doesn't feel real sometimes. It's pretty amazing though and as hard as it's been, I wouldn't trade away even a second of it. I was made to be a mom and my daughter is the most amazing person I've ever known. She is the most amazing thing I've ever done. Hang in there, it will all be worth it.
Focus on you and baby, only! You’ll do great