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So basically I told my partner he wasnāt allowed to buy anything for baby until the 20 week scan when we find out the gender. We found out early at 17 weeks but I told him he still has to wait til the 20 week scan āfor confirmationā but really itās because I still donāt feel ready. It was a struggle convincing him to wait this long tbh but Iām high risk and have literally been having dreams of the worst happening. This is going to sound so horrible but from the start of this pregnancy I didnāt think it was meant to be. Iāve been having issues since 5 weeks pregnant which have *mostly* settled but not completely, Iām scared. We were trying for this baby and although itās horrible to say itās even more horrible to feel but Iāve just had such a bad feeling about this pregnancy since finding out like I donāt think babyās gonna make it š¢ Iām 21 weeks tomorrow and have the 20 week scan when Iām 21+3 weeks. I donāt really wanna start getting stuff for baby yet I kinda want to wait til my 28 week growth scans start but heās excited to start getting stuff in because this oneās a boy š
idk I just donāt feel ready
Realise youāve probably had the scan by now. How are you feeling about it all? Completely understandable and normal to be scared. Iām also classed as high risk and so hard not to worry or let your kind run away with you. Often I think those feelings come as they are our worst possible fear. I donāt think thereās a right or wrong and up to you and your partner. Could try getting some basic things like wipes and see how you feel? And then building it up from there as opposed to anything gender specific :) x