Why are we like this? 😅

I have four babies. My oldest (7) is in school and my toddler (2) and my youngest son passed away. So I now have 3, my daughter is six months and today I was at my school and I handled it pretty well with my two babies, some days are harder than other but I love it so much. They make me so complete

I want another baby too but my ppd with the last baby was so awful and I don’t know if I could handle adding one more. But I am having a really hard time saying no more babies.