Birth

Is anyone else more nervous about birth this time compared to their first birth which couldn’t have gone much better? First birth was 12hrs in MLBU, sent home after 6hrs. I had the pethidine injection which worked well, almost too well because I was very drowsy. Had 2nd degree tear. For me, my birth was very straight forward but for some reason I am more nervous to give birth this time around. Especially nervous about pain, tearing and baby arriving safely.